Can’t Stand Me
What do you find more unbearable: watching a video of yourself, or listening to a recording of your voice? Why?
A video of myself just embarrasses me. I know I’m fat, but seeing it from outside myself is just a total bummer. I don’t like pictures of myself, either.
A voice recording isn’t so bad. It’s just that my voice sounds different to me than it does to you, and I have a hard time reconciling what I hear on a tape and what I hear in my head. People have asked me to be in all different vocal groups, so I’m assuming that they don’t find my voice unpleasant. I probably should have written that last sentence in past tense. Women’s voices fade earlier than men’s do. Not fair, but that’s life. These days, my voice is unreliable at best, creaky and croaky at its worst. Every now and then things clear up and I can actually sing, but even then my register is much lower than it used to be, and I’ve always been a low alto. These days, I could sing bass.
Surely there are more interesting things to discuss.